because of you

every night I feel worse.
I don't know where all of this sadness is coming from.
I don't know how much and how long I could take it, I don't know how long I could hold my breath.

it's suffocating sometimes. alcohol doesn't help. sometimes I hurt myself. and it felt so good that I realized, I have to stop. because I'm scared of God.

I kept on denying it. but deep inside I knew. It was all because of you...