30th

30th.

11|20|2021

I just turned 30! holy moly. where did all the years go? How did it all happen?

I still can't believe I've been alive for 30 years!

Okay let's take a look back, and Let's see what's been going on with my life right now. Just a few recaps.

Family - well wow! what a huge 360 degrees turn. I don't even know where to start.

hmm. Mama passed away last year, in February 2021. Man, that was so traumatic. from the moment she was brought to the hospital. can't go into details right now. but I will write it here soon.

Then my Kaka Zen, after fighting cancer for about 3 years. He already reaches the finish line. it was sad. and toxic. and depressing.

it was even harder in the months after. I was in really bad shape, MENTALLY.

Man! that was crazy.

Relationship - don't even make me start! haha. Well, it was not that bad. there were few suitors. but the timing is just not right. I know... when?? haha, when will I be ready? I don't even know... to be honest, I am totally fine without it. or maybe it's just not what I need right now...👀😩

Career - On this part, I am confident to say that it's going pretty well. My work was finally noticed by my Supervisor and Boss. I received an increase.. and incentives. So far it's doing all right.

Health - I am trying to live healthily, and eat healthy as much as I can. I try to be physically active. I am 72kg now. I know... OMG. been trying hard to be physically active to lose weight. I hope I can do better this year.

Mentally.... hmmm I'm a total mess. and it doesn't help that I am surrounded by toxic people. hayyyy

I know what to do. I try to speak with a therapist. I am also taking some calming pills. so far it helps. I hope I will get better.

I am now living in Taguig. yup the same old house I grew up with.

I am not sure what is the right next step. I wanted to move out but there are so many factors to consider. ahh..

it sucks to be an adult.

Overall I am fulfilled and satisfied and proud of myself for everything that I have achieved over the past 30 years of my life. it wasn't easy. especially since I did everything on my own.

I can say that I enjoyed and valued my 20s.

and I am soooo looking forward to my 30s. I am very excited.

they say the 30s are all about being more confident, and stable... that's all I ever wanted all my life.

I am hoping and praying to be at peace in my 30s.

Hoping for the best!